Saturday, December 22, 2012

There are no words

There are really no words to describe the terrible tragedy in Newtown. That morning I checked, as I do every day, when I saw the story of a gunman in an elementary school. Within minutes Facebook blew up with status updates and links about the horror.

Every day, Ian and I park in a nearby neighborhood and walk a block or so to pick up Cole. On that day, I was in tears as the line of kindergarteners came out. I know so many of them now. They wave when they see me. They hug me goodbye. I stood there watching all those little faces and wondering how. How? How would I get through it?

Walking home that day was extra special...because I got to.

Over the next couple of days, more stories were told. Pictures and names of the victims were released. I scrolled through the galleries looking at each with tears welling in my eyes. And then I saw this one:

And I felt like I had been stabbed in the heart. Daniel Barden. 7. He reminded  me so much of my Cole. That hair. That face that is almost "too pretty" to be a boy. The missing teeth (though Cole's are on the bottom). I started praying again for all those parents and family and friends. For the ones left behind. And I closed my laptop and hugged my boys. And hugged them and hugged them some more.

And then this. Little Daniel's funeral. Again with the stabbing in the heart. Daniel had planned to be a fireman when he grew up so there was a line of firefighters in his honor. Another parallel to my Cole who says he's going to be a Deputy Sheriff when he grows up. And I thought how it would be at my little guy's funeral, with a line of Deputy's. And I started praying again. For Daniel's parents and his siblings and his family and his friends.

There are no words.

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Read-a-thon update

Not sure what hour we are in but I'm still going along. Still not sure that I will even try to attempt staying up all night. My eyes are beginning to blur already and 8 AM is a long way away still.

I have read Stargirl, Forever, Agnus, Thongs and Full Frontal Snogging and am about to be finished with Fever.

Have visited a few websites to encourage other readers as well. Am surprised by the lack of commenting this go round. When I participated before, there were lots of comments on everyone's blogs.

The One After the Break

After a break, I am back to reading. Have finished Stargirl and am now reading Forever by Judy Blume. Read this one when I was a kid and am curious to see if I like it now as much as I did then. So far...not so much. I hope it is only the boy's name that is throwing me.

2 Hours In

Two hours into the read-a-thon and I am almost finished with Jerry Spinelli's Stargirl. Am loving it.

Friday, October 12, 2012

Dewey's Read-a-Thon Countdown Begins!

Oh yes, just hours away from the start of the 2012 Dewey's Read-a-Thon and I have my stack of library books all ready to go plus the hundreds that I personally own that are stacked on my shelves. Thanks to the lovely Jamie of The Perpetual Page-Turner, I put 15 books on reserve last night. We picked up 10 of them today. She recently did a Top Ten "Older" Books I Don't Want People to Forget for her Top Ten Tuesday post. Many of the reserves came from that list because I hadn't read any of them except for everything Judy Blume ever wrote.

Tonight will be spent getting all my snacks ready. In the morning I will hit as many yardsales as I can get in before the 8 AM start time. Then it's reading and reading until the next morning. Still not sure if I will go the whole 24 hours yet but I will be reading until I don't want to read anymore.

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Dewey's Read-a-Thon

It's that time of year again. Time for Dewey's 24 hour Read-A-Thon. I haven't decided if I will participate for all 24 hours again but I will definitely be reading for quite a while this Saturday.  I have several books out from the library but am thinking that I am going to tackle some of the books collecting dust on my own bookshelves.

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Blog Your Heart Out - September

I am a huge fan of Stephanie Howell. Today has been a rough day so when I saw her BYH post I knew I needed to do one myself.

1. Sometimes I remember a time when I thought I could do more than change diapers and end brotherly fights.

2. Sometimes things are not really good for you but they sure are fun.

3. Sometimes you need to keep some things to yourself.

4. Sometimes I need to remind myself that "no" is a complete sentence.

5. Sometimes I need a nap way more than the boys do.

6. Sometimes I want to give up and walk away into the woods like our crazy cat did.

7. Sometimes all it takes is a smile from one of my boys to remind me of why I try so hard to stay home with them.

EDITED TO ADD: Apparently this never posted. So it's BYHO Septemberish. Tee hee hee.

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Clean Up Man

Ian was picking up all the sticks from the road in front of the house. He said that they would "broke" cars if he didn't move them. I refrained from mentioning how many I had just picked up in our yard...*without* his help. ;-)

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Copy cat

After looking around the blogosphere for an awesome background for the blog, I had to copy my friend, Christi, again. I had this background for a while way back and I still love it so I'm sticking to it. Sorry to be a copy cat, Christi!

Fences - Week 1

Today's message was week one of Pastor Brian's new series, Fences. I will be downloading the podcast as soon as it is available so I can listen again. Nothing is better that a series full of actionable information. And this one is one that I really, really, really need. I actually laughed when I read the title on the notes page..."Boundaries"

Throughout the message, Tabitha nudged me and said "amen"...yep, I needed this one. A couple of top take-a-ways: we need to have fences and not walls because fences have gates and let the good things come through and we are responsible for our thoughts.

I am usually fussed at for looking at my phone screen too much but today my pastor told me to tweet during the service. It's the new amen! That is totally awesome. Getting Twitter set up last tweet was in May of 2011! Request to follow me @danaduggar

Genesis now streams live on Sundays during the services. 9:29 and 11:01. Go to

Friday, September 14, 2012

11 Days

11 days. I love this show. Love. Big thanks to my Wood for introducing me to it. I have such fond memories of watching the first seasons (stop snickering Jennifer!). I watched last season but hadn't watched all of season 3 when it started so I'm finally starting a season having watched all the old episodes.

Can't wait until the new season starts.

Thursday, September 13, 2012

4 Simple Goals - a challenge

My girl Elsie recently posted a challenge on her blog. 4 simple goals to be completed by the end of the year. 

1. Find new music that I love
2. Ease into blogging without guilt
3. Take more pictures
4. Try new recipes...don't just pin them.


Wednesday, September 12, 2012

The one where she returns...

It has been over a year since I blogged and I'm feeling a bit rusty. I know that all (three) of my readers have long since stopped reading but I hope that they will come back and I'll find some new ones to connect with. Will be tweaking the look and layout so I apologize if things change around for a while. I will find my groove soon, I hope!

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Thursday, August 4, 2011

So very true...

Saw this on a shirt...

Don't Worry Everything Is Going To Be Amazing

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Week in the Life

Once again I will participating in Ali Edwards' Week in the Life. So glad that I have the boys this week or it would be a very boring glimpse in my life. This time I won't be posting as many of the pictures and some parts of my completed album will be blurred out. Mr.X still reads the blog and there are certain things that are totally and completely none of his business. Really looking foward to this one. So many new things, so many things are different and so many things are better since the last time I participated.